Thursday, February 13, 2014

once i lived 
where words were quiet
and reminders were sweet;
no shouts, no put-downs,
never needed to retreat

once i lived
where all was calm
and words were gentle;
and i held happiness in my palm,
where every pain was accidental.

once i lived
side by side with my flaws
and never saw them reflected,
but now the world is on pause
and all my words are deflected.

once i lived,
once i lived,
but now I merely am.

and I had lived in fear
of the big bad wolf;
of when he might attack

and in my fear
I found I was fooled
thinking he wasn’t at my back.

but these days i’d even take
the big bad wolf over this:
choosing the hunter was a mistake.

Monday, August 12, 2013

morbidycorvidy:

I finished my Black Rose cosplay tonight~ Spent like… four and a half-five hours of nonstop sewing and alteration (see that purple bandaid? I sliced my finger open with my scissors while cutting the fabric for my sash!)

My favorite thing is my squiddle shirt :D I had a black t-shirt that I bought at the thrift store a MILLION years ago and never wore anymore because it was too short to wear with low-rise jeans (just a bit) but now… It gets new life!

shitty webcam pics are shitty.

just reblogging the crappy pics of my rose cosplay…. I actually had a better put together version and perhaps, someday, I will cosplay Rose again…

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

morbidycorvidy:

NOW TAKING COMMISSIONS!

Sinnce I’ve got some medical bills to pay off (I owe 2,100$ to my hospital for an emergency visit in January and for Dante’s medical bills — since he’s currently uninsured) and I need to start putting money away in savings, I’m going to be taking commissions! 

The rates are as follows* 

Sketches: $5.00 

Colored Sketches: $6.00 

Lineart: $7.00 

Flat Colors: $10.00 

Full Color: $15.00 

*Rates apply only to a drawing including up to 3 characters and a minimal backgrounds. Extra charges apply for more than 3 characters and for detailed/complete backgrounds. 

For (each) additional character: 

Sketch: $0.50 

Colored Sketch: $0.75 

Lineart: $1.00 

Flat Colors: $1.50 

Full Colors: $2.50 

For a Detailed Background: 

Sketch: $1.00 

Colored Sketch: $1.50 

Lineart: $2.00 

Flat Colors: $3.00 

Full Colors: $5.00 

What am I willing to do commissions of? Pretty much anything and everything! Original characters, fanart, concept art, pin-ups, porn, graphic violence, gore — you name it. The ONLY things that are off the table are images depicting incest or pedophilia. Sorry, but I’m not willing to draw those things.  

If you’re interested in a commission, just send me an ask or a fanmail (fanmail is preferred for original character requests so I can get links to references!) and we’ll start discussing your request!  

And even if you can’t afford/don’t want a commission PLEASE reblog — I really need to take care of these bills — I can’t afford to be in debt.

Update:
My insurance, for some reason, didn’t cover my therapy bills from February-April. I now owe another 600$, this time to the local counseling center. Guys, please commission — I really need the help. I’ve got a 2 month old to take care of. Please.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

morbidycorvidy:

NOW TAKING COMMISSIONS!

Sinnce I’ve got some medical bills to pay off (I owe 1,900$ to my hospital for an emergency visit in January and for Dante’s medical bills — since he’s currently uninsured) and I need to start putting money away in savings, I’m going to be taking commissions! 

The rates are as follows* 

Sketches: $5.00 

Colored Sketches: $6.00 

Lineart: $7.00 

Flat Colors: $10.00 

Full Color: $15.00 

*Rates apply only to a drawing including up to 3 characters and a minimal backgrounds. Extra charges apply for more than 3 characters and for detailed/complete backgrounds. 

For (each) additional character: 

Sketch: $0.50 

Colored Sketch: $0.75 

Lineart: $1.00 

Flat Colors: $1.50 

Full Colors: $2.50 

For a Detailed Background: 

Sketch: $1.00 

Colored Sketch: $1.50 

Lineart: $2.00 

Flat Colors: $3.00 

Full Colors: $5.00 

What am I willing to do commissions of? Pretty much anything and everything! Original characters, fanart, concept art, pin-ups, porn, graphic violence, gore — you name it. The ONLY things that are off the table are images depicting incest or pedophilia. Sorry, but I’m not willing to draw those things.  

If you’re interested in a commission, just send me an ask or a fanmail (fanmail is preferred for original character requests so I can get links to references!) and we’ll start discussing your request!  

And even if you can’t afford/don’t want a commission PLEASE reblog — I really need to take care of these bills — I can’t afford to be in debt.

Monday, July 8, 2013

morbidycorvidy:

NOW TAKING COMMISSIONS!

Sinnce I’ve got some medical bills to pay off (I owe 600$ to my hospital for an emergency visit in January) and I need to start putting money away in savings, I’m going to be taking commissions! 

The rates are as follows* 

Sketches: $5.00 

Colored Sketches: $6.00 

Lineart: $7.00 

Flat Colors: $10.00 

Full Color: $15.00 

*Rates apply only to a drawing including up to 3 characters and a minimal backgrounds. Extra charges apply for more than 3 characters and for detailed/complete backgrounds. 

For (each) additional character: 

Sketch: $0.50 

Colored Sketch: $0.75 

Lineart: $1.00 

Flat Colors: $1.50 

Full Colors: $2.50 

For a Detailed Background: 

Sketch: $1.00 

Colored Sketch: $1.50 

Lineart: $2.00 

Flat Colors: $3.00 

Full Colors: $5.00 

What am I willing to do commissions of? Pretty much anything and everything! Original characters, fanart, concept art, pin-ups, porn, graphic violence, gore — you name it. The ONLY things that are off the table are images depicting incest or pedophilia. Sorry, but I’m not willing to draw those things.  

If you’re interested in a commission, just send me an ask or a fanmail (fanmail is preferred for original character requests so I can get links to references!) and we’ll start discussing your request!  

And even if you can’t afford/don’t want a commission PLEASE reblog — I really need to take care of these bills — I can’t afford to be in debt.

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Advance info on Commissions (PLEASE REBLOG!)

morbidycorvidy:

illusionaryexistence:

I need to do something to bring in money to help out with the baby expenses — money’s a little bit tight even with taking advantage of the help offered, I want to do the best I can for little Dante so… I am planning on taking commissions. Once I have a bank account/paypal/etc. set up to do so, that is. 

INFORMATION:
I only plan to offer sketches, lineart and digital flat-colors (at first) — planned starting rates are:
-$2.50 for a sketch,
-5$ for lineart
-7$ or so for flat colors.
Additional charges for 3+ characters and detailed backgrounds — but I haven’t finalized what the rates will be for that.

So, if you’re interested and would like to know when this will be opened up, just send me an ask/follow me. I will be posting updates as I work towards this goal. I do hope to eventually be able to offer full-color (shading, highlight, etc.,) in both traditional and digital mediums but that will come after I can invest in a graphics tablet and new coloring supplies. 

If you send an ask you can get a reserved spot for the future when commissions are opened— guaranteeing you will get one if you are interested. This will likely be done before the official “TAKING COMMISSIONS” post — I may also ask permission to use said commission as an example of previous work in my commission advert post. 

Thank you, I can’t wait to start drawing stuff for everyone!

Hey guys! I’m getting started on this stuff again — should be able to open them within the next few days!

Update: I will be offering full-color commissions (since I’ve figured out how to color in Sai w/a mouse now that I don’t have a giant belly in the way). Cost for full color will be 11$.

Friday, April 5, 2013

Advance info on Commissions (PLEASE REBLOG!)

I need to do something to bring in money to help out with the baby expenses — money’s a little bit tight even with taking advantage of the help offered, I want to do the best I can for little Dante so… I am planning on taking commissions. Once I have a bank account/paypal/etc. set up to do so, that is. 

INFORMATION:
I only plan to offer sketches, lineart and digital flat-colors (at first) — planned starting rates are:
-$2.50 for a sketch,
-5$ for lineart
-7$ or so for flat colors.
Additional charges for 3+ characters and detailed backgrounds — but I haven’t finalized what the rates will be for that.

So, if you’re interested and would like to know when this will be opened up, just send me an ask/follow me. I will be posting updates as I work towards this goal. I do hope to eventually be able to offer full-color (shading, highlight, etc.,) in both traditional and digital mediums but that will come after I can invest in a graphics tablet and new coloring supplies. 

If you send an ask you can get a reserved spot for the future when commissions are opened— guaranteeing you will get one if you are interested. This will likely be done before the official “TAKING COMMISSIONS” post — I may also ask permission to use said commission as an example of previous work in my commission advert post. 

Thank you, I can’t wait to start drawing stuff for everyone!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Heartstrings (Dec. 2008)

Easily broken and torn apart,
the tiny strings that hold  the heart,
keeping it together in the dark of night,
darling I was blinded by your light.

But none of this is right. 

Because you’re nothing but good,
and love, I’m nothing but bad,
so let’s do what we know we should,
this is the best we’ve ever had.

But love, it’s got to end.

So I’m cutting my heartstrings,
I’m letting you go,
I still love you, I hope you know,
you gave me my wings.

You helped me to fly.

But now it’s time to fall.

Fade (Sept. 2009)

To fade away at daylight’s end,
like twilight’s golds so fleeting
like summer’s warmth which must extend
to winter autumn’s greeting.

As by and by, the night descends
the cities turn to sleeping
as the change in dearest friends
can bring the strong to weeping.

Bitter (Mar. 2010)

Love is such a bitter thing,
painful, aching, dreadful sting,
tearing at my fragile heart
a game against me from the start
dripping, ripping vibrant red
the pounding in my chest is dread
staring through the looking glass
love pulls a trigger & holds it fast
it’s grip is like an iron maw
the ice of me begins to thaw
and I don’t want to melt away
in winter’s grip I wish to stay
let hatred hold my frozen heart
let love leave leave and fall apart
no stirring of these gentle emotions
I do not want such foreign notions
take away what I feel for you
unless, that is…

you feel it too…

A Plea for Affection

Please warm my blood with your silken touch,
fill my white cheeks with a rosy red flush
light a fire in my frozen veins
caress me, hold me, erase all my pains.

Your whispered words make me feel alive,
your soft voice sends shivers down my spine.
The fragrance of you makes my heart skip a beat;
the ice of my skin melts to your burning heat.

Kiss me softly with white-hot lips,
trailing scratch-marks under your fingertips,
thin red lines marring frozen skin,
a lingering evidence of our lust, 
our sin.

Pulled into the quick flowing current of passion,
bodies intertwined in an deep ocean of satin,
my lips tremble,as I whisper your name,
the raging inferno dwindles to a flickering flame.

But the warmth never stays, the chill will return,
the blood will refreeze, the candle won’t burn.
I wish that the heat of our love would last,
your affection passes by all too fast…

Empty

Empty is just another feeling,
one you get when the mind is reeling,
when you just can’t get anything right,
how it feels when it’s always night

Glass Walls (Jun. 2008)

I sleep in a room with glass walls
everything that goes on outside, I see
but inside the walls, no one sees me.

Watching the world going on outside,
in this little glass room I sit and hide
I want to go out, but there’s no door.

I don’t know when I went inside,
when the adventurous spirit within me died,
and left a nervous and timid shell to live on.

I let it all pass me by,
and I try not to let it effect me
but eventually it will.

The glass will come down someday,
and around me it will shatter
and then the real life will begin.

The life that will matter.

if ever you leave (Oct. 2009)

bruises mar her porcelain skin,
stretched so tightly, so frail & thin,
her heart beats like an angel’s wings
her voice reminds me of tender things.

how holding tightly, i stole her away,
took her into the night & stole the day
holding tightly,  i did her harm,
no shelter from the raging storm.

but all i’ve done has been for love
so sweet, given by the lord above,
for tenderly, i say, and she’ll see
"I’ll die if ever you leave me."